I'm more of a fall cleaner than a spring cleaner. It seems to me that if we're about to hunker down together in the house for a couple months, we should probably make sure we can be comfortable. These seasons are just brimming with opportunities for coziness. But can I really relax into it and seize the cozy while looking at all this mess? (That's rhetorical.)
Truly, I don't mind cleaning. I used to actually enjoy it. I'm neat, I like organizing, I like a challenge, I'm persistent and creative. I think these are all traits that lend themselves to cleaning! But I have two little ones now. I'd rather be doing something with them. And, let's face it, it's somewhat less satisfying to clean a room, move on, and have it look like a tornado hit by the time you come back in.
But -- it needed to be done.
Some unexpected highlights:
finding candlesticks at the back of the freezer that I put there to de-wax so long ago I didn't remember -- beautiful (expensive) wedding gifts and other sweet votives perfect for this time of year;
finally getting motivated to frame and hang the cross-stitch I made for Linus (which I actually started in college and then found while I was pregnant -- how's that for fate?);
hearing the games Sela & Linus came up with on their own and listening to how they played out;
cleaning the pantry and dumping dated spices and molasses and enjoying the surprise of the scents -- a happy preview of fall & winter baking;
being occassionally moved to tears as I cleaned to music (who would've guessed I'm a cry-er, huh?);
coming to terms with the (now) glaring fact that although Linus is 2 years old, there are no pictures of him up yet (next order of business for sure!!);
finding sweet handprints we made together at the Clayground & hanging them on the wall where we can enjoy them every day (instead of the back of the closet where I found them forgotten);
really getting to see and appreciate the richness of our lives in all the little details, like in the pillows Sela made in Art Scouts the last two summers -- by clearing away the clutter I can really see "her" in her colors and designs;
remembering the meditative experience of thoughtfully caring for our home, as an extension of the loved ones who live in it;
remembering the meditative experience of thoughtfully caring for our home, as an extension of the loved ones who live in it;
slowing down and being present in each task -- wiping dust away from lamps given to me by a dear friend when she moved (far) away, and from picture frames bought on a business trip at a job that was a leap of faith (the job didn't work out, but the friends I made there I'll keep for a lifetime);
noticing the faces in our framed photos -- like the expression on Sela's face at a Capay Valley farm on the Annual Mother's Day Garden Tour, where she and J would prepare beautiful lunches with all my favorites;
and remembering how the small act of having fresh flowers in the house is so good for the soul.
noticing the faces in our framed photos -- like the expression on Sela's face at a Capay Valley farm on the Annual Mother's Day Garden Tour, where she and J would prepare beautiful lunches with all my favorites;
and remembering how the small act of having fresh flowers in the house is so good for the soul.
Also: discovering I have a "mending pile" on my sewing table -- who knew?! |
Thank you for that inspiration! I'm slowly getting there. :)
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